... and here I am one month later. I thought I'd feel better by now, but I don't.

Why must it still sting as if it all happened yesterday?

Life goes on, of course, but I feel so burdened by the void imposed upon me. Such sweet remembrances haunt my dreams and torment my days.

I long for the embrace of warm wings no longer within my reach and a kiss that will never again touch my lips.

Though you may never read these words, as foolish as I may be...

I miss you sweet dragon.

Why oh why has livejournal turned into little more than imports from Twitter? I refuse to join that stupid thing so I just don't get the point of most of the things I'm now forced to read on here. This used to be a place where people wrote in complete sentences.

OK OK, I'm terribly guilty of not posting in ages, I admit. So it's time to take drastic measures apparently. I MISS CONVERSATION !!! Or at least complete thoughts. I know lots of people are griping about this same thing right now. I think we should all make a conscious effort to post some sort of response inducing thought or question on here before the end of the weekend and see what happens.

Anyone else with me?
:)

is there ever a point in person's life when they actually come to define what a "friend" is to them specifically?

I mean, isn't it quite the vague term? like how we have all different sorts of friends, in varying degrees, on various levels, for various reasons?

does it not then become a mute term?

or does the english language simply not accommodate for such intimate definitions?

as the time draws closer to my shift in gears (moving) I find myself questioning the resonance of so many different relationships... family, co-workers, companions, roomies, buddies, sisters, tribesmen, brothers, equals.

and I have to wonder...

in the years that will be... how will I come to think of them all? were they my "friends"?

it all seems too contrived, too neat. they were all something different to me in each of their ways. some barely acquaintances, others more than blood itself.

recently someone told me that one of the middle eastern languages from which I descend has over 50 words for the term "friend" because logically, it has at least that many variations. whether this is true or not is irrelevant to me.

the simple though of it alone put a smile on my face.

wow. I forgot how nice it could be to just sit and enjoy a beer by myself and watch a little something on tv.

got home from a very trying night at work about an hour ago and as per usual on my non-after dark saturdays I arrive to an empty silent house, wide awake and bored out of my mind. after exhausting anything I could entertain myself with on facebook etc. I decided to go scrounge around downstairs for something to munch on. I warmed up some leftover pizza and went to the fridge for some ginger ale but alas... there was none. so I grabbed some water and then thought "what the hell" and grabbed a beer too. with my trusty camo beer sleeve under arm I trekked back upstairs, loaded an episode of Will & Grace (which I've come to call Me & Greg)sat back, popped the cap and relaxed. it really was divine. now all I need is a clove and I'll be in heaven :)

during my moment of zen I noticed that Miso has taken to playing quite friskily with some new phantom cat around the house. he's been bounding up and down the stairs and came diving across my bed a moment ago digging his paw and face into the corner of the wall after it. whatever man. just stay outta my closet.

greetings all.

I've had a few weeks of serious introspection as a result of a very frustratingly random, sad incident in my life recently. I've decided that that it's time for me to start using my brain again.

Writing has always been one of my best creative outlets, and after going through all my old posts, I realized this was a place where I used to forward all the good/bad/silly/confused etc. things going on in my mind out to anyone who would read it. Sometimes, when I was lucky, people would actually respond. And every once and a while, true conversation was attained. I miss that.

My job keeps me pretty much completely nocturnal these days. I have little to no contact with friends and correspondence of any sort is withered down to a few lines here and there on this blinking screen. I spend most of my waking hours alone in my room, coming home after work, trying to be as quiet as possible as to not wake everyone else that's been sound asleep hours before I got here, watching the window brighten as the moon sets and the day star rises. I find myself desperate for contact. Sure, I'm around all sorts of people at work all night but the place isn't exactly conducive to intellectual exchanges. I'm not saying I feel the need to debate the intricacies and hypocricies at large in our society on a daily basis... I simply want to talk to people. Even if "talk" means typing thoughts.

So I'd just like to say hello again to everyone here.

I'll be hanging around here a lot more me thinks :)

So... have you been naughty or nice ?
Who cares! Let's party!

The holidays are upon us but before the endless travel to visit relatives tries your patience and that "ate way to much" feeling bogs you down, come out and party with us for our annual X-MAS AFTER DARK.

Melt away all your shopping stress on the dance floor. Our DJs have been stocking up on all things to make you move, and a few new surprises.

There'll be an array of munchable munchies for everyone to feast on, and sweet treats all around.

Wash it down with our deliciously addictive new holiday shooter: Grinch Grog.

We'll have an under $5 Secret Santa exchange just for fun. If interested, add your name to the list when you get the message.

This will be our last get together of 2008. It's been one hell of a year and I'd like to thank all my DJs, my After Dark street team and every single customer, for keeping the night alive.

Now let's send the year off right...with one last KICK ASS party !

and just a reminder... After Dark will return Jan 10 for the first of our monthly nights.

See you all AFTER DARK
- Algae
xxx

FRANKIE
SAYS
DANCE !

and yes...DO dress like it's 1985

see you all AFTER DARK
xxx

I can't believe how different these two came out...made one last night, one this morning..gee can you guess which was which :P

now that ugly episode is over, let's get back to the music!

see you saturday
xxx

It would take an eternity to express in words the wonder I feel for the cosmos right now. A most unexpected yet wonderful turn of events has reaffirmed my belief that there truely is a balance and right now, I'm revelling in all the happiness that was offered to me over the weekend. I'll try to condense it...


The city was alive.

Delerium was utter magick.

Conversations were honest.

The view was glorious.

A picture said a thousand words.

Roses were red.

Night was intense basking in Diana's rays.

Morning was sweet sunshine.

Dearly missed friends were suddenly close.

Leaves began to fall.

Breakfast and dinner were catered and impecable.

The Ale was pumpkin.

Laughter was side splitting.

The deepest of emotions ran true.

It was, and still is, all very real.

<3

it's "good clothes weather" again people and the dance floor is calling !!!

see you all tonight
XXX

Can't sleep.... clowns will eat me

the "night before" is always the worst.
once I have all parties present and accounted for I'll relax...right?

the long awaited return of M.A.D. saturdays is finally here.

this will be a night of "EPIC" proportion !

I awoke to the sound of street cleaners.

An hour later I took inventory of all the things a large snow-pile on a small patio can harbour. The mornings thaw revealed what I can only describe as entrails of a winter that started out sweet and white, but turned harsh and grey, leaving me yearning for the warm winds of change that only spring can grace us with.

I could smell it in the air, the cleansing air of her re-birth. Soon she'll wake and grow and bloom. Soon I'll feel her sisters cool baths washing over me. Soon I'll bask in the rays of her ancient lover.

Then before the afternoon had barely begun, the clouds rolled in and the warm wind turned chill.

At least I got a taste, a reminder to the faithful, of all that she has to give us, and will, very...soon :)